Monday, November 23, 2009

Your Highness

I finally heave up my lazy ass to type this sentence.

I have been a bad father.

3 nights ago I experienced a phenomenal that shattered my heart crushing every artery that made up the pumping organ. My adored daughter for the first time in her life shoved me away while I attempted to pat her on her back. It was 4.30 am in the morning. I had just finished a shower and dying to crawl into bed after a torturing OT in the office. The past weeks had been rather unforgiving as I pushed myself to work on projects, designing, illustrating, meetings, and all those crap that will make any chap think otherwise on becoming his own boss. In other words, I was a freaking bee that couldn’t spare a second for my daughter. I was an OT maniac, unwillingly though.

The little princess woke up in the middle of the night, and reiterated in protest. She clung on to her mother like she had just seen a complete asshole for the first time in her life. I turned to meet her in her face only to be rewarded with an annoyed look from her while she turned away from me to the other direction. That heart smashing process apparently repeated ten folds until I gave up. Not only did she not want to look me in the eye, she aggravated my heart crushing moment by crying and pushing me away.

I resented eventually, wavering the white flag.

Normally she is like the koala from down under that stubbornly hugged on to you even if an earthquake is shaking the ground at 100 Richter scale. Be it in a restaurant if I have to leave for a moment to pay for a meal, or walking away from her to wash my hands, or any scenario that warrant a two metre proximity detachment, she never wanted to leave me, protesting in wails and tears will fix a 2 month drought.

What exactly happened 3 nights ago?

It was as if she knew. That I was working too much to be bothered with her, leaving her with the poor mum to coax her to sleep every night, that I have been a bloody asshole shoving her aside every morning heading to work, that I neglected her blog updates without even a single pic of her 1 year old birthday.

I deserved to be spanked!

And decapitated, and be ignored by the great, great, great grand princess.

The aftermath? I spent a good weekend with the highness by showering her with all my love and care. Lights, Christmas trees in Orchard road, extra long baths for the kiddo and lots of smooches. So much so the missus had been teasing my sorry ass for the making up effort. I was a pathetic dog and servant to the greatest of greatest, highest of highness, and prettiest of princess in the whole wide world.

So have you forgiven me yet, my darling Angel?

Sorry daddy’s been a prick.

It’s 1.52 am in the morning. I better check on you before the day draws a close for me. And double cross my fingers that history does not repeat itself within a 3 day time frame...

Hang in there dowager, here I come.

*To fellow bloggers, sorry for not being able to visit your blogs lately, lets catch up again soon. S O R R Y.

18 comments:

Bengbeng said...

you probably got her at a wrong moment :)
equivalennt to an adult's bad hair day :)

U r the best daddy to her in the whole wide world

said...

i'm going to spank u for angel when i'm there~

Medie007 said...

awww... it must be really hard being turned away like that. even though i don't have a kid, but yeah the way u write it is enough to make ur readers feel what u went through. u're gonna make one good father i'm sure. just hang in there. :) and watch ur back! :P

Gratitude said...

Kids give the purest indications without malice, so there you go....Dada the overstressed, probably flacid prick, needs a big spanking indeed, but certainly not by L2. lolz

Hey, no need to be sorry. We are juz too free to be kaypo-ing in the blogosphere so frequently. Please do take care.
+Ant+

Twilight Zone said...

Oh no, L2 spanks and cums all over you ~ BEWARE! Lol ha ha ha...

I know how you feel... we have similar working hours too. I suggest that your missus bring your princess to meet you at your work area for quick meals when work late. My colleagues did that too and their small kids understood & adapted the parent's work urgency so well.

Anonymous said...

You just deserve it ..

Shionge said...

THis is so sweet and yes I bet you have been forgiven and likewise, in view of your tight working schedule, you are forgiven too for not visiting my blog hehehehe...just kidding :D

Happy December .... today is the first of Dec, how time flies ya :D

A Common Singaporean said...

Beng Beng - I will like to believe so. But I think otherwise. She's been cranky lately. I am facing another phase of fatherhood, wah lau this is even tougher than imagined!

L2 - Ouch!!! hahaha! Don't like that lah...

Medie - Today's been rather bad. Its her half yearly scan visit for her VSD. They put something into her for sedation. She cried like mad to fight the effects. She was real cranky.

Gratitude - Kind words always come from you. But I am still not spared from the spanking yeah? haha admit it you sicko, you are dying to watch me get spanked right! hahaha. Kidding of course lah. I know u r a nice chap.

Twilight - No more life in the creative industry in our next life, agree? hahaha I wish I have some other skills apart from what I do. But then again, I will probably still complain if that is the case, I just a fucking wanker human lah. Please pray for me lah!

Anonymous - Whoever u r, tx for reading my blog.

Shionge - Wow 1st Dec!! How time flies, wait a minute... are u implying something, something along the line I havent been reading your blog? hahaha. I am sorry lah. I still havent been off the hook. I thought I could be free by this week, but I was wrong. And the govt has called my sorry ass to reservist next week. But yeah, I will catch up w you on yr blog!

said...

hey twinkle... why talk abt disgusting thing~ >_<

Bengbeng said...

just curious for an update about yr back. how r u doing?

A Common Singaporean said...

L2 - Don't act innocent lah, hahaha.

Beng Beng - Hey thanks for asking. The answer is bad, still no good. Its a bothering problem that affects my daily lifestyle. I am learning to manage it. I cant seem to find a solution.

Shionge said...

Merry Christmas to you and your family Ken ;D

Bengbeng said...

oh i am a little too late to wish u a merry xmas but seriously i thought of u on xmas eve ( i had gone on a holiday n hadnt wished anybody ) and regretting it while i was on holiday :)

Gratitude said...

Hey Lazy Ass Father! Seasons greetings and a Blessed New Year! Hope 2010 is a smooth ride for the Mrs, Angel, and you. :)
Take care Sexy Dad! ^_^
+Ant+

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A Common Singaporean said...

Shionge - I know I have posted much comments on your blog but I still hv to reply your comment. Be blessed, during difficult times, and even through the best of times.

Beng - Thanks for thinking of me even during yr trip!! My god, this is most heartening. Hey I wasnt able to receive Beng Hui's mail becos the email id on my msn is outdated, and I havent found a way to change that ID add, what a pain. My working email add is ken@pddesignstudio.com.

Gratitude - I still am lazy u know. And I hope I am sexy but I am not. Happy Holidays.

Anonymous - Whoever u are, thanks for reading my post. Hope to see u ard in this blog space soon.

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