Monday, September 7, 2009

Pain

The pain is more than I can bear for the past 4 days. What started out as a normal day last Thursday turn out to be a hellish trip of fucking lower back pain all through the bloody weekend. I could hardly walk. I am surprise at my own threshold, I beared it all through Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, and now I am at the fucking point of breaking.

3.40 am in the morning, Monday today. The pain is overpowering, I woke up in the middle of the night feeling sorry for myself. And I haven’t felt this sorry for years. I always thought only wimps feel sorry for themselves, apparently I have recruited myself in the army of sorry sods. I sighed and resigned to the fate of 2 slipped discs bowing low to human structural degeneration.

I have done all I could to keep myself healthy and fit. At least 4 times a week I would waddle in the swimming pool and once a week visit to the neighbourhood stadium. I also make regular visits to my physiotherapy centre and ensured that I keep myself mobile all the time, less idling and more activity is what I need according to every damn doctor and therapists I have consulted.

I really have done my best. But I walked like a waddling duck with a 10kg dumbell tied to its feet for the past 4 days and felt like an apologic dog whenever my daughter cried for me. This is the worst weekend for me, and the only days of my life that I hadn’t make my daughter very happy. I cannot carry her like I always did, and it is breaking my heart. I am serious, my walking speed made me a member of the snail community due to the extruded discs pressing on my nerves sending pain signals to my brain. I felt like shit.

It doesn’t help either that I am currently limping with my right arthritic knee that is equally pissing me off like a pregnant woman feeling the need to visit the toilet every 10 freaking minutes. This weekend had been nothing but shit, elephant pile stacks of shit that comes in tonnes! DAMN!! Chee Bye!!! Nah Beh!!

Ok, I think I am done. I am done complaining and whining in the true essence of a qualified wimp. Let me try to get myself some sleep. Apologies to those of you who have read until the final words of this post, an unconstructive post made up of complains and swear of a pain ridden ordinary chap.

Damn, I am feeling sorry for myself again.

Sorry guys. At least I made it to 2 post entries this month.

hmmmm...

18 comments:

Leu said...

hey wat happened actually? u didnt tell me u r in such pain when we chat thru msn on friday~

hmm~ u must be feeling real pain coz u swear all those words out~ lolz... little angel will understand why her daddy didnt been carrying her around for these few days

take care of urself and better soon dude :)

TZ said...

Dude, it's very serious to hurt the lower back... take good care of your self eh~

Twilight Zone said...

I am at loss for the right words to comfort you at this moment but you have been in my thoughts for the past 2 hours. My head was revolving about spiritual help, bad karma and modern medicine that could relieve you. You definitely need help fast to solve this nagging matter.

Take it as a temporary test to bear with the pain so that when you recover, you will put aside time to help the old people.....with back problems too. There's even an NGO in KL where they raise funds to help patients to have operations to fix their bone joint pains which I do not how to explain their sufferings in words.

Remember this heavenly advice always - "Every problem has a solution in life"

A Common Singaporean said...

Leu - Nah it's ok. Besides I didn't think the pain would drag so many days. It usually lasted a day or two max. But I was proven wrong of course. Besides you were about to celebrate your Birthday, why talk abt such complain right? Anyway its just a case of slipped disc problem, quite common wan lah. Thanks for your concern really.

TZ - Thanks for popping by here. Its a disc generating disease lah, it has taken years to develope. I don't think I hurt it just like that. Thanks dude too, for words of concern.

Twilight - Thank you for the advice. And I am sorry I got you thinking and scratching your granny head for 2 hours, pai sey lah. I am just complaining lah. I couldn't sleep because of the terrible pain so I might as well get up of bed and surf the internet or blog abt it or something. The back pain is not gonna go away anytime, slipped discs are like that lah, some days are good I have no problem running 10km on the tracks, some days I can hardly walk.

And I think I get what you mean on the kharmic and spiritual healing coupled with medicine part. I am doing my best.

Once again, thank you for your concern. Thank you very much.

Twilight Zone said...

Where the hell is Anton for feeling sorry but no comment here? (Scratching my head and balls)

Let me check his crystal ball on his whereabouts!

Gratitude said...

This Granny is the kaypo-iest hag around with a lethal tongkat aminah!

I saw your post earlier today, but wuz actually lost for words, and compounded being troubled by Granny's rants. I hate it when my words of comfort wld amount to nothing in helping to alleviate your suffering. All I cld do is to to offer healing prayers to at least minimise ur pain. I'm no medic, but i know that slipped disc is a long term situation that needs proper care. I pray you are getting one now. Please do take care bro. ^_^

foongpc said...

Sorry to hear about this! I hope you're OK now. If you don't mind me asking, how did your slipped disc come about?

Shionge said...

I am so sorry to hear this and sorry for being so far behind your update Ken.

Hope you are under treatment or something and please don't exert yourself too much. You can hug baby & wife once you are full recover.

Take care!!

A Common Singaporean said...

Twlight & Gratitude - Thank you so much really, for being so concerned. Really, I am doing ok now. The specialist handed me some pain killers and muscle relaxant. Popping these drugs have been religion every morning and night, I felt alot better now. Thanks again.

Foong - Well actually its due to years of back posture and extreme OTs in the middle of the night when I am doing my design work. Its a build up kind of thing, it doesn't happen overnight, at least that is what the doctors said. But I am a little skeptical, I recall a bad injury I had back in 2002 when I went back for in-camp training in the army. Ever since then, I have got this pain.

Shionge - Oh you are back! Hey not to worry really. I just have to bitch about this a little bit since I have nothing much to do in the middle of the night. If I can't walk, at least I could put my finger to use by typing a few lines, and it ended up as a complain post! But I am a lot better now. In fact I am going to swim a few laps in the pool later, slowly of course...

foongpc said...

I think you must have hurt your back during the in camp training then. So there is no cure for it? You will have this pain on and off? Hope you will find a cure for it! : )

Medie007 said...

hey, am really sorry to read about this. i hope the pain's lessen over the days now. have you been following up in the hospital to see if it's recovering or something? might be slow, but i read that it could be cured. all the best of luck to you my friend.

Shionge said...

Yo...Thanks for visiting my blog :) Hope you are getting now :D

Bengbeng said...

i am so sorry to read this Ken. I have no words of advise except perhaps share what i went through myself. I was lifting a dragon jar ( salted egg pot in the old days ) Suddenly I heard a sound and I couldnt move for 3 to 4 days. The pain lingered for years.

That is until yoga helped after three months. I dont feel the pain any more.

kenwooi said...

take care!

kenwooi.com

A Common Singaporean said...

Foong - Not sure really. But the specialist mentioned the structure had already degenerated, there is no way to reverse time. The only way is to change my lifestyle, opt for one which is less stressful to the back. While I have had advices that Chinese Sensei can fix the problem. Beats me.

Medie - As per my reply to Foong. I am not sure if there is a cure to this. Its alright, I will live through it. Perhaps one day you may advise me when you become a full fledge doctor!

Shionge - Oh yes, a great deal better now, only on and off lately. Catch up with ya on your blog again!!

Beng - Thats wat the missus been telling me too. Definitely worth a try, yoga.

Kenwooi - Thank you. I will. Cheers mate.

Shionge said...

Yo Ken, love your sense of humour about donut :) Glad you are feeling better and thanks for spicing up my blog comment :D

Take care!!

MiChi said...

it's frustrated... are you going for any surgery or treatment? got to bear with the pain...~!

A Common Singaporean said...

Shionge - Hahaha. No kidding, it's a real story, sista. Glad that you have enjoyed it!!

Michi - There is no treatment, unless going under the knife which I have no intention to do so as I am still too young for that. Thanks for your concern, I am much better now!